It's been a year, what I feel right now is so much different than last year. So many things have happened for me to get here. I hope you don't mind how much I still try to talk to you. I still hate that I can't come over and tell you over a pot of coffee but I'll always remember when I could. I know you are better now, no more pain or fear. I miss you and look forward to seeing you again one day. Give Grandma, Papa and Uncle Howard a big hug for me.